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Gahhh!! I feel like I am going crazy... missing Phil more every second. It's not right to be married and separated from my other half. I feel like he's one half of me because without Phil here, I only feel like half of myself. Marcus doesn't count because no matter what, I give him one hundred percent of myself, one hundred percent of the time.

But when it comes to being separated from the one I love [Philip], it hurts to be alone. To sleep alone, to eat alone, to shower alone... don't cringe. We're married and allowed to do that [coughmomcough]. I've even degressed to being jealous of Trish and Josh *gasp* when they go out every night and spend their nights together... it just makes me upset. Weird, huh? I don't know how to explain it. It sucks while he's at Camp Bullis because I can't just call him or text him and be able to talk to him. I have to wait til he has time to call me, and even then... the phone reception is horrible.

I'm sure those of you who are in the military understand completely, but I don't think anyone else could empathize.

Ha I must go for now... Marcus has my phone